Monday, December 24, 2012
Enjoying this Holiday Season
Although I am burned out a little right now (if I am burned out, I can imagine the Hubby must definitely be burned out!) of the Academy I am enjoying every little thing and taking it all in that he's got a 8-5ish M-F shift with all Holiday's and weekends OFF right now. We picked out and decorated our tree, him and I wrapped the kid's presents together, we've went out looking at Christmas lights as a family and again with friends. Not too many plans on our weekends- just family time. For the Christmas Holiday our only plans are for dinner at Dads on Christmas Eve, stay home all day with the kids and then have dinner at my mom's on Christmas Day.
Next season will probably be drastically different! That I am not looking forward too, I can handle him working Thanksgiving and even Christmas Eve-maybe. BUT if he's working Christmas morning, that will be the toughest for me. That's my favorite time (obviously since we have small kids it's the BEST time during the Holiday season) We'll just have to get creative as to when Santa visits our home because Daddy's a police officer. As excited as our kids are for that alone I am sure they'll not even care when Santa comes. Again- one day at a time- that's a whole year from now! Any cop wives have suggestions on how you handle Christmas Morning if the Hubby is working??
Hubby's first FAIL
Week 17
Hubby had his first FAIL this week! If you ask me he got a C not an F because the percentage of the test was 76%. All tests are different but this one in particular was a 80% to pass. I didn't even believe him at first actually. He had been doing so well in scenario's and written that a FAIL hadn't even crossed my mind. All week him and I thought/stressed about it. ( he wasn't allowed to re-take until Friday) The thing is he's only allowed 3 fails and if you fail the same test twice you fail OUT OF THE ACADEMY! The good thing was he knew what he got wrong so he knew what to study for the week. But it's a bit stressful to take that second time- even if you know what you did wrong.
Well Friday morning came and I didn't hear from him (that he was on his way home, due to the fail) so I assumed he passed. By 6 that evening I finally heard from him and got the confirmation. PASS!
The stress of this stuff is crazy! To know that he could in fact fail out?? We have made such changes in our lives and have so many people rooting for us it would be devastating for him to fail out at this point in the game. As he and I both say though, one day at a time. We've got 21 weeks left. NOT EVEN HALF WAY YET!!!
Hubby had his first FAIL this week! If you ask me he got a C not an F because the percentage of the test was 76%. All tests are different but this one in particular was a 80% to pass. I didn't even believe him at first actually. He had been doing so well in scenario's and written that a FAIL hadn't even crossed my mind. All week him and I thought/stressed about it. ( he wasn't allowed to re-take until Friday) The thing is he's only allowed 3 fails and if you fail the same test twice you fail OUT OF THE ACADEMY! The good thing was he knew what he got wrong so he knew what to study for the week. But it's a bit stressful to take that second time- even if you know what you did wrong.
Well Friday morning came and I didn't hear from him (that he was on his way home, due to the fail) so I assumed he passed. By 6 that evening I finally heard from him and got the confirmation. PASS!
The stress of this stuff is crazy! To know that he could in fact fail out?? We have made such changes in our lives and have so many people rooting for us it would be devastating for him to fail out at this point in the game. As he and I both say though, one day at a time. We've got 21 weeks left. NOT EVEN HALF WAY YET!!!
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Am I cut out for this??
It's no secret that it's been a tough transition for us(it's after all the reason this blog exists). I felt though that I remained in control of my emotions, stayed positive and strong for me and the family over the last 11 weeks. Even when Hubby didn't look so good nor did he sound so good at times- I still remained very positive and always supportive. In other words, I put on my big girl panties and dealt with it!
I however seemed to have lost my "big girl no crying panties" a few days ago... I believe it started when in one of hubby's scenario tests he informed me they used a real gun with blanks in it to portray an "ambush". So that means that really happens? People really do shoot at cops? I always knew that obviously, but it didn't hit home until my Hubby was "the cops". This freaks me out. And brings me to these questions: Am I cut out to be a cops wife? Can I handle the dangers he'll be putting himself in day in and day out? I knew it was dangerous, but I don't think I ever really grasped just how dangerous it can be. I am confident he is being trained very well and will be well prepared for this dangerous job ahead(he is after all in one of the top 5 Academy's in our state). AND bottom line is- whether I feel cut out for it or not, it's happening, this is my life! I am working on putting my faith in God on this one and do my best to enjoy and make good quality time as a family when he is home.
Also, this week I became very tired of the academy and all it brings. I am tired of the 2 hour drive home for hubby, I am tired of the boot shinning, brass polishing, ironing,studying, paper writing etc.. I miss him and seeing the kids miss him is really hard. It consumes most of his time when he is actually home and I am just over it. We are not even half way yet either!!!! So I text my girlfriend; I need a pep talk, I am not in a good way right now! HELP!! But before I could meet up with the girlfriend, I spilled it all to Hubby. I don't hide my emotions or the way I feel very well, when I am bothered by something he can tell. So of course after the kids were in bed he asked me what is going on?? I completely lost control of the emotions and let him know all that I was worried about. Him and I always have good communication (15 years in the making) and it wasn't that I didn't want to share it with him, but I want to make sure I am always supportive for him. So when I am feeling down and not so positive I want to vent to one of my girls first. He listened to all I had to say and didn't say much but did hug me. (I love our hugs)
It was a good talk and I felt better after. By the time I got to hook up with the girlfriend I felt so much better. It was just a 2 day pity party, but is always nice to still fill her in and get some additional thoughts and discussion in. Also she's always good for a laugh which I really needed!!!
I however seemed to have lost my "big girl no crying panties" a few days ago... I believe it started when in one of hubby's scenario tests he informed me they used a real gun with blanks in it to portray an "ambush". So that means that really happens? People really do shoot at cops? I always knew that obviously, but it didn't hit home until my Hubby was "the cops". This freaks me out. And brings me to these questions: Am I cut out to be a cops wife? Can I handle the dangers he'll be putting himself in day in and day out? I knew it was dangerous, but I don't think I ever really grasped just how dangerous it can be. I am confident he is being trained very well and will be well prepared for this dangerous job ahead(he is after all in one of the top 5 Academy's in our state). AND bottom line is- whether I feel cut out for it or not, it's happening, this is my life! I am working on putting my faith in God on this one and do my best to enjoy and make good quality time as a family when he is home.
Also, this week I became very tired of the academy and all it brings. I am tired of the 2 hour drive home for hubby, I am tired of the boot shinning, brass polishing, ironing,studying, paper writing etc.. I miss him and seeing the kids miss him is really hard. It consumes most of his time when he is actually home and I am just over it. We are not even half way yet either!!!! So I text my girlfriend; I need a pep talk, I am not in a good way right now! HELP!! But before I could meet up with the girlfriend, I spilled it all to Hubby. I don't hide my emotions or the way I feel very well, when I am bothered by something he can tell. So of course after the kids were in bed he asked me what is going on?? I completely lost control of the emotions and let him know all that I was worried about. Him and I always have good communication (15 years in the making) and it wasn't that I didn't want to share it with him, but I want to make sure I am always supportive for him. So when I am feeling down and not so positive I want to vent to one of my girls first. He listened to all I had to say and didn't say much but did hug me. (I love our hugs)
It was a good talk and I felt better after. By the time I got to hook up with the girlfriend I felt so much better. It was just a 2 day pity party, but is always nice to still fill her in and get some additional thoughts and discussion in. Also she's always good for a laugh which I really needed!!!
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