I have really neglected the blog.... not just because we were having a really fun summer but it was partly because I was having a pitty party of 1! I slipped into this weird person and I didn't like it. I was super negative about hubby's new job and wanted NOTHING to do with anything police or law enforcement related. I stopped "following" any police wife blogs and pages, I had ordered this cute LEW tee and returned it. I couldn't figure out what all the LEW's "loved" about the job! I didn't want to hear of it and I got annoyed when he or anyone talked about it.
Not liking where I was or how I felt I talked to a few friends about this and then hubby - and although it took some soul-searchin I began to feel much better. It's been a few weeks now and I am in a much better place. I started to realize that it's not really THAT bad- and in talking to friends (who's husbands are NOT in LE) I realize that as wives and mom's we are worried about our husbands and about pretty much everything sometimes! I am pretty sure that my worry took over and I wasn't looking at the positive aspects of the job- because frankly I didn't think there were any. I am watching a bit of a change happening with the hubby's personality- and while I knew that'd happen at some point, I was having a hard time adjusting to it. He's in a very dangerous city, it's all ugly and negative things he will see day in and day out. And while all these things are true- there are many more positives to the job.
The first and most important positive is that hubby is so happy with his job. In fact he gets up everyday(when he's working) at 3AM without hitting the snooze button even ONCE. He cannot wait to go to work. This is huge for him especially since he is not a morning person and for 12 years at his other job I had to practically yell at him to get up at 7AM. He'd hit the snooze button 10 times!
Because of his schedule and now a little more on the pay checks we took many small over night trips and 1 week long trip to San Diego this summer. Kids had a blast as did the hubby and I. Also, he can take and pick up our kids from school which he has never been able to do before, him and I go to the gym together on some mornings- hey we have mornings alone- now that's really weird and so nice too. He's proud of himself and so are the kids- which is really amazing to see.
Something else recently happened that just really blew my mind! All summer we enjoyed Hubby's schedule and took full advantage with the kids off of school and I also had the same days off as hubby. The huge drawback to this schedule was that he had to work Sundays AND he'd be working Christmas Day this year- one of my biggest fears since day 1. To me Sunday is a family day and especially during football season- we are huge football fans and it's kinda our thing to watch football on Sunday's together. About 2 weeks ago hubby was offered a bit of a promotion (which in itself is wonderful considering he's only been on for 3 mos) and it was something he wanted to get into anyway. BUT this called for a schedule change! Which at first was not so exciting- this means less time for hubby and I since now he'd be off when I work. And we had gotten so used to the schedule and loved it. But after much discussion and thought between the two of us and him talking with some of the uppers he decided to take this new challenge and go with it. Especially since he's so new and he could very well get a really bad schedule this coming January.
SO while getting "our feet wet" with this new career and during summer he had that great schedule so that we could spend a lot of time together as a family and now, after summer and we've all settled into the new job -he's making a change. This means Sunday's off and now Christmas Day off as well. I find it so crazy that this happens the WEEK OF FOOTBALL opening and Christmas is around the corner. I think God is trying to tell me to relax, this career is here to stay- it's what completes hubby and I need to be just as supportive as I was last year at this time when we found out he was getting "in".
PS: one more little(not so little actually) thing- with the new schedule he will miss every one of our daughter's soccer games. HOWEVER the coach decided to do a scrimmage the other day in full uniforms. So it was kinda like he got to see her for her 1st soccer game! (Thank you, GOD)
